I have neglected my writing this week, but with good reason. Because we leave three days from now
I'm exhausted - from Monday though today, Friday, I've slept less than 12 hours & partied harder than I have in a long time every night save for Wednesday, the night that I didn't sleep at all.
I'm overwhelmed - the emotions I've experience for & from others have been vastly wide-ranged & phenomenally strong, & they've grown more quickly than is normal or than I'm used to.
I'm humbled - of the many people I met not one was any less than remarkable; although eclectic & varied in their strengths, weaknesses & personalities not one failed to be warm, open, or genuine in their willingness & desire to open their hearts to me completely & invite me fully into their lives. I can't remember any other time in my life that I not only gained so many close, close friends in such a short period of time, but I also became a close & trusted friend to so many outstanding people.
I'm sad - to be suddenly so close to so many, it hurts me to have to leave them so soon.
I'm scared - I don't know how I'll feel to return to the place where I've felt such isolation in the past after showing & being shown such unrestrained kindness, friendship & love.
But more than anything else, I'm peacefully happy - to have felt such exhaustion, to have been so overwhelmed, to have experienced such humility, to have felt so sad, & to have been so frightened is nothing less than a gift that many people never receive, & one that I will treasure with all of my heart for as long as it beats.
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